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It is important for me to document this. I will never quite be the same after today.

We had to have Tiny, a large sized, curly-tailed mutt breed dog of ours who's been in the family for 8 loving years, put down today. Killed. And I was the one who had to watch the proverbial trigger be pulled alongside my niece, who only just arrived today.

She was a sweet meathead Tiny was, I type this in a state of what I can only describe as a hollow apathy only hours from the occurrence. She had Erylichia, also known as the culprit that causes Tick Fever, but today also we found out she had besides that and to our horror, a fungal infection in her lungs. She began bleeding an orange mucus from her mouth on the way to the vets, in the car, her breath rattling and wet suddenly. The nieces and nephew had arrived from MI for their summer visit today so Leah , my older niece and soon to be studying vet technician, came with us and held Tiny in her arms on the way to the city.


By the time we arrived at the vets, Tiny had began horking and hacking out foamy orange mucus which we knew to be bloody by its tintation. Her gums were pale and I knew this was a bad sign. Leah and I ended up carrying the 80 lb dog into the office, and while she was only due for a checkup on her condition today the turn she took while in the car to the vets told us we would probably not be coming home with her.

Our worst fears of the situation were fully established once the vet had an X-ray performed, her mouth still dripping orange liquid in puddles upon the floor and she lost some control of her bowels suddenly, Tiny fought with every last tendril of her will as the doctor told us of the deadly fungus devouring her lung tissues. Mother and my niece were in tears. Oddly, I stood there with my palms pressed upon the dog as if draining the soul remnants from her body as would a geist of death, calling her home to her maker. I cannot describe the feeling. Things were decided hurriedly. She was to be put down right then and there, as Tiny was in her dying moments already and would last only a few torturous hours at best without the finalizing shot. The good and saddened doctor left the room for a moment. A syringe was procured. A pink fluid pulled within it. I stood there holding the dog, ready to have to do what I knew would have to be done, this was a horrible first time for me to have to do anything such as this and have no way out of it. Mother had left the room in tears, calling my dad, who would later burst into tears over the phone at the news of his dear dog losing its life. He had thought she would get better before this point.

There was an incredible surge of energy and sorrow about the room as the injection was pumped into sickly Tiny's anemic veins. No going back now we knew, though I blocked the thought out at the time and decided to fascinate myself with witnessing the mechnisms of a large living body shutting down. The only coping mechanism I had for a situation I could not back out of was to kill my soul and purge it from me, thinking only along the lines of what was happening to this sweet dog's body in the scientific sense. Her breath slowed as more of the hideous pink substance was pumped into her front left leg, and the air reeked of the putrid, acid smell of death. A final wash of orange water flooded from her mouth, Tiny's now vacant body voided it's bowels completely, and she was finally dead. Freed from the terror I felt permeating her essence and the air of the room.

The feelings I am left with as the images that do not cease their racing through my haunted brain, are indescribable.

Sleep sweetly, dear Tiny. We are all so sorry...that we could not keep you for even the rest of today.